My Top 5, 2013 everything.

5. The Fault In Our Stars. 

This book completely took me by surprise, I mean I knew the brief synopsis before I read it. I also knew about the Green brothers from their Youtube channel. However what I did not expect was to be so moved by the words of somebody else. This book actually solidified my belief that working in the area of literature was my path!

Anyway I wrote a whole post about this... find it here!

4. Equality/ Same Love

DOMA and the equal rights movement spreading and acceptance now being shown by law changes were felt universally. The atmosphere this year that has been to do with equal rights has been mostly positive. Even though there are certain places where terrible things have been happening to stunt the progression of this important movement, the darkness has been matched equally by light. Some of this light was provided by one of the most important and my favourite songs this year! Macklemore being brave enough to talk about a topic which normally in his genre isn't highlighted is not only brave but inspiring and I really hope this songs and the publicity it is getting helps people be more open and accepting... WORLDWIDE. 

3. Applying for university/the whole process

I will be the first person to admit that this process as im sure is applicable to everyone going through it was, tough, nerve wracking and almost the death of me. However saying this, it is one of the biggest things this year which has brought joy and the feeling of being proud of myself through and through. Not just for getting through the process alive and sane but because at the end of the seemingly endless tunnel there was a light. Getting into all of my choices was something this time last year and well even previous to that I thought not impossible but implausible. So YAY! GO ME!

2. Ariana Grande

Of course I knew about Ariana from Victorious... However when she released her debut album everything changed for me! I viewed her as a musician and by god is she talented. There is no song on this album I did not fall completely, wholeheartedly in love with. However if I had to name a few I would recommend listening to 'Piano' for a song to dance around your bedroom too! 'Almost is never enough' A stunning, romantic duet with my fellow Brit Nathan Sykes, both of the vocals on this are so beautiful and from Nathan a true representation of just what he is capable of. Ariana's vocal range is extraordinary, and even though there have been repeated comparisons to Mariah Carey, I think she has her own style and being someone who never really got the whole Carey thing. I do get Ariana, I think her music is able to strike a chord with all ages and genders. She has broken the barriers of niches and created a whole load of awesome melodic beauty to grace our ears with. If you haven't heard of her... Where have you been? Also don't worry too much because I can assure you 2014 is going to be MASSIVE for her. 

1. My Family!

Family and friends are the most important 'everything'. This year as many before and im sure many to come have been full of ups and downs, sometimes more downs than ups but one thing for certain is that with every year my love for them gets that little bit stronger. I am taught so many things by the people I hold dearest to me, whether that be new friends that have arrived this year or ones that have been here for all of my 20 years on this planet. Whether it be having a shouting match with my mother, cuddles with my sister, hanging out with my brother, laughing with my father or enjoying my youth with my friends there is nothing I could ever value more than the faith, support and happiness that they give me. "The bond that links your true family is not one of blood, but of respect and joy in each other's life." - Richard Bach

Left or Right?

Seems simple... so why is it that the option could possibly change who you are as a whole person.
The small choices in life that we don't think about are the ones that are most important, a choice such as turning left could mean that whatever is to the right is lost forever. The things that turning right would have been a foundation for are never going to happen, you will never know what would have been ahead of you.

Small choices however are something I have recently begun to realise I MUST NOT waste my time regretting. If at that point in my life I chose left there was a reason for it, if that happened to be the wrong direction there is no point in wasting time thinking about it because the honest truth of the matter is, I really truly will never know if it was the worst choice or whether turning right would have lead to worse things than turning left.

My point is that for me there is no time in pondering on what could have been because nobody really knows and if you spend your days looking back, you might not see the next choice ahead. 

I HAD TO WRITE ABOUT THIS.

Its been too long since I posted on here, Moving house and not having the internet nearly killed me. This was mostly down to the fact that I read my now favourite book as im sure it is among most people. I cannot imagine anyone reading this book and not feeling changed.

I was in the middle of applying for university to study English literature when I read this book and just HAD to write about it. This solidified my belief that words are the most powerful form of communication. The intelligent language and captivating characters completely did it for me, the story is something of extreme tragedy but for every piece of writing that strikes at the heart strings there is an equally touching piece of humor to balance out emotions. John Green has rapidly become one of my favourite people and I cannot wait to purchase every other book he has blessed the world with. 

I do not know entirely how I feel about this book being made into a movie, especially because some of the actors that were cast were not my immediate first choices. However I will most definitely see the movie because I cannot imagine this story being told in a way that topped what I have already read.  I guess that we will see but until then I think I may re-read this book till I am convinced it cannot entertain me anymore. 

Growing up

Its getting to that time of the year, I have somehow become another year older and am no longer a teenager. The weather is getting cold... I mean colder than average in this abysmal country. BUT it is that terrifying time in which I have to send of my applications for university. I have actually managed to do this even though every single bone in my body resisted growing up, I think it has started.

Growing up seems like something that is ideal, you get to move out, drink, party, have no rules. All of this at the age of 15 where pretty much you are constricted to stealing your parents cigarettes and drinking WKD under the underpasses seems exciting. Then you grow up. You have to start thinking about life and all these important things like what you want to do, get a degree or a job. You have to think about where you are going to live and how you are going to afford of it. You think about having to make your own Sunday roasts, and to some of my friends and people I have grown up with it means looking after another human being you seem to have created. People my age having children always seemed weird to me until I realised that most of them are in their early 20's and this is considered normal. I then think, OH MY GOD, I have reached an age where it is socially acceptable to have children.  A WHOLE HUMAN BEING. The more I think about it, the more I realise its okay to be scared to grow up, its something that unfortunately is inevitable but making the conscious decision I have made is to enjoy going to university because that is the next step and to deal with growing up the only way I know how to... one day at a time.

My 'go to' sad song

When I feel sad I seem to listen to one certain song, now I don't know if this is something everyone does or just me but I listen to probably the saddest song I have on my itunes. I cannot work out if I do this to feel better or worse I sure know it makes me feel worse. However once my eyes are out of that salty gross stuff I feel better. My go to sad song is 'over you' - Miranda Lambert. I don't actually know why this song but no matter what the situation may be, this is the one I end up replaying for hours and hours.

The point of me writing this is to put down in a sort of contract-ish way that I will not go to this song any more. I have gotten to the point where I am tired of being sad. I am tired of feeling inadequate and have decided that having a sad, 'go to' sad song isn't good for the soul. My new 'go to' sad song is going to be ROAR by Katy Perry, this song is super empowering and I think that is what I need when I feel like im being buried in the rubble that is my life. I need to rise from the ashes and well ROAR. 

I still have a dream.

So today is the 50th anniversary of that famous Martin Luther King speech, you know the one about having a dream.
I completely respect the movement that this speech spear headed and even though it was plenty before my time I think that what he said and accomplished with his words is astonishing and I am proud to live in a world where I can go to school with others of different ethnicity's and I can learn about the various cultures that the world has to offer.

However, I cant help but think on this day that even though huge strides have been made there is still a HUGE prejudice toward certain people. What I am personally talking about is homosexuality. I think that we are progressing and taking steps forward but really we shouldn't need to have to work at this because what is there to think about?
Should we give gays the right to love and marry freely? HELL YES. what gets me is that this is even a question on peoples minds. How is it that some people are so ignorant that they would preach hate towards another human being.

The bible may state that homosexuality is wrong but it also advocates that we should all love each other, I assume that this is including those who love those of their own sex.
As a person, like im hoping all of you that read this are... When I happen to meet a new person I do not decide if I am going to start a friendship or enjoy someone's company by first asking about their sexual orientation. I get to know a person, not their partner preferences, If I decided that I was only going to be friends with brunette's or that only brunette's could get married the whole world would consider me insane. So why I ask is this any different from sexual orientation, the colour of a persons hair does not make them any nicer or meaner, what colour their hair is, is not going to impact my life so why should who someone loves?

The capacity to love wholeheartedly is a wonderful thing, and denying certain people the right to this is shameful. Love is Love.

Self doubt.

As an avid self doubter I have come to realise that many people at at least one point in their life seem to believe that they are not good enough or what they are doing isn't right. Recently this has been A massive issue for me in deciding what my future holds. We are all asked the question or even ask ourselves the question, where am I going to be in years to come? This has been playing over and over in my mind for a extended period of time and  have begun to doubt that I even know where, what or who I should be.
 However I know that I am only young and the idea that people who have been living for much longer than me still carry this burden makes me hopeful that there is time to change and yes knowing who you are or want to be is something that I am envious of.
I now have begun to realise that it really doesn't matter!
It really doesn't matter, this whole sentence and philosophy seems obscene and ludicrous. How can it not matter? Do you not have any hope?
The answer is that I do have hope and I am also very much aware that who I choose to be is completely up to me and I shouldn't be pressured to decide because I am the only one with the power to change myself, my life and my choices.
I'm not going to settle for what I think is easy just because im scared of taking chances, isn't that what life is about? taking chances and making sure that you can be pushed to the metaphorical ledge, because with risk comes reward and if it all comes tumbling down there is always a lesson to be learnt, Because lets be honest you never stop learning in life. Every single challenge you face is a chance to improve on yourself.
I am going to ensure that from now on, I do everything I can to be the best version of myself, I think if everybody did the world wouldn't be so harsh and cruel.

New places

As a person, I find myself getting increasingly harder to impress I mean entertaining me could be an Olympic sport and with getting older I of course find it harder to make something out of nothing. Now as I am almost 20 I dont think playing dress up and making a fort out of bed sheets and chairs no matter how fun, is something I am not expected to do. However, recently me and the father, uncle, sister and nan found ourselves on an unplanned trip to the Isle Of Wight.
Starting at a nice early time of about 9am we made our way to the ferry where I consumed my morning coffee, thank god cause this was going to be a LONG day. After the ferry got us to the Isle Of Wight it was time to decide what we were going to do, we decided on getting food at a cafe on the beach because it was now around 12 midday. We ended up in Ryde which is one of the most beautiful places I have ever seen and I was already impressed to say the least.
Then we headed off to my pick of the day Seaview wildlife park, THIS PLACE WAS STUNNING. Even though the actual park was rather small it was in pristine condition and I got to meet and stroke some adorable wallabies!

Here is a unflattering photo of me with a wallaby (impressed)

So after all of this we went to some place called the needles and as an EX geography student I really didnt get the appeal! After this long day I feel I was impressed and would have actually liked to do more!

I came away with some good memories, new sunglasses and REALLY BAD SUNBURN.

Here is another unflattering photo but with my horrible sunburn that I hope will turn brown ;)

Overall I had a brilliant day and decided that new places can be fun and also WEAR LOTION :)

THE ZOOOO

I haven't been blogging recently cause so much has been going on with exams and travelling to spend some time with my fathers side of the family in Southampton. However I have been meaning to post for a while and haven't really had anything to talk about but I recently took a family trip to the zoo and discovered my love for a certain animal, in fact I would suspect that it is more of an obsession. The Meerkat. I have always thought they were cute but man, seeing them for real solidified that my spirit animal has to be a Meerkat. They were however at the beginning of our zoo journey and nothing else really caught my eye after that I was focussed on getting back to the Meerkats to join my people (animals).

If this photo does not make everyone's insides all tingle with love I have no idea what will!
Here are a few interesting facts:
Meerkats normally live for about 12-14 years unless in the wild in which their life span is reduced to almost half of this! 
Meerkats live in 'Clan, Mob or Gang' normally this will consist of about 20 Meerkats, and eventually ME. 
They can be found all around the world in places such as Kalahari Desert in Botswana, in much of the Namib Desert in Namibia and southwestern Angola, and in South Africa. 
Meerkats are primarily insectivores, but also eat lizards, snakes, scorpions, spiders, plants, eggs, small mammals, millipedes, centipedes
I dont know about you guys but I adore these little guys and going to the zoo was interesting as we also saw tigers, giraffes, Leopards, Penguins, monkeys, wallabies and lemurs so here are a few photos from my day at Marwell Zoo. 

PENGUINS

MR LEOPARD

MONKEY

GIRAFFES!

I did feel sorry for this guy, TIGER

WALLABY

And a REALLY CUTE LEMUR.

Billy and me

So I do have to admit that I did want to read this book as a galaxy defender (Mcfly fan) but also as a huge book addict I thought it would be interesting to see what a woman could do with no degree but a brilliant imagination. I really felt this book was a success for the first time author Giovanna Fletcher, the setting was beautifully written and the rustic feel of the tea on the hill was completely charming. The character of Sophie May is inspiring, and reminds us all to keep a hold of our dreams, and to be strong and overcome all heartaches. The character of Billy for me was a little bit predictable but none the less I did enjoy his growth throughout the novel. A clear fan favourite has to be Sophie May's best friend and what I consider the heart of this book Mollie, she brought a smile to my face and reminded me of my late grandmother which is something any author should be proud to say they have done because she was one in a million. The chemistry between the two was endearing and the beautiful friendship was something to envy. I would recommend this as a summer flick, and if you are going on holiday this is certainly one for around the pool while sipping a mojito. I give it a 3/5 and I certainly will be patiently anticipating her next work! 

RANT.

If you come into my home, you respect my mother and her house. That is a given right? My mothers partner has friends who insist on cleaning new spoons. Now my mother is what I call a 'Monica' she is obsessively clean, if one of her place mats are the wrong way round, she notices and changes it. This is annoying and I really have a thing about people who think they are bigger and better than other people. This is situational ranting, I would not normally blog about things like this but I mean, GET THAT STICK OUT OF YOUR ARSE...

My Favourite youtubers!

Music: I have to admit this is a tie between Sam Tsui and Tyler ward!  But at the moment Sam has just released his debut album and as someone who discovered him a long time ago when he sang with Nick Pitera one of my favourite songs 'For good'. His album is so beautiful, incorporating heart-warming love songs such as 'Me without you' and 'Wherever you are' to the more upbeat songs like the title track 'Make it up' I strongly recommend buying his album. He is super pretty, also his voice is not something you hear very often. He acts too! And apparently he has decided to let the world know there is really very little he cant do by dancing in his new music video which I will  insert here:

He also works with a SUPER TALENTED producer Kurt Schneider.
(side note they also both attended Yale University, what clever boys!)

Comedy: 100% for me this has got to be Shane Dawson, I mean this guy is fucking funny! If you like me enjoy crude senses of humour he is the guy for you! He incorporates music into his comedy at times also which I love being such a huge fan of music. I love that he doesn't take himself too seriously and I know if I've had a shitty day I can tune into one of his videos and find myself with an ears splitting grin and if not my sides normally hurt from copious amounts of laughter! Especially funny is his music video and song Fuck up ill add that in below: 

Vlogger: This has to go to like many others would agree Joey Graceffa. Man his life can be the most boring thing ever and he still manages to make me smile, whether it be his Edward Cullen hair, Shared love of the hunger games or just general silliness  I am definitely a psychopath (name for his viewers) Also he did extremely well on the US version of The Amazing Race with fellow youtuber Strawburry17. His face is also not a bad sight when one is having a bad day, CHECK HIM OUT GETTING SHIRTLESS WITH SAWYER: 

Make up/Beauty: I feel I need to show some love to my fellow English folks which I am happy to do with fleurdeforce (fleur) She is a beautiful lady and has some killer advice on what is good within the beauty realm. I am not exactly the most competent girl when it comes to making myself look even slightly presentable but her videos have helped me to know what is good to buy and introduced me to some lovely products that I use now:

Finally I feel like this YouTube needs a mention even though im not sure how I would categorise it, I just really enjoy the short films that they make, in fact this is my favourite short film production channel although that doesn't really have the best ring to it. Wong Fu Productions are 3 guys that I have to admit I shamelessly have only just discovered and man, they are talented. They surround themselves admittedly with some awesome talent which just helps to propel their good work into the realm of AWESOME. So here is a short film they did which was really beautifully shot and see if you recognise any of the actors... Maybe from Glee?

Eurovision 2013

So the Eurovision was on this past Saturday and I thought I would wait to post so that I could express my predictable sadness.
The same thing happens every year when it comes to me and the Eurovision, I always watch it thinking 'This year we might actually do well, and some of the people may actually be good' Every year I find myself staring open mouthed at the TV for the sheer ridiculousness and this year certainly did not disappoint I mean Romania definitely win weirdest performance ill just throw it in here for you all to erm... Experience?

I wont be forgetting those 3 minutes of my life wasted in a long time.

Then of course you have my personal favourite, which was not United kingdom surprisingly it was Malta. The cute romance song which was a Jack Johnson type feel good song sung by a recently qualified doctor, no idea how he had the time to enter Eurovision considering the medical students I know have no time to do much else and they are still STUDENTS?! But nevertheless I LOVED IT. So here a feast for your eyes and ears! it even has a music video which is ADORABLE.

Then there was Bonnie Tyler who represented my great nation, yeah I really didn't think much of the song and her performance wasn't great either, I dont know if its because she wasn't my era or just isn't my type of music but I will not be listening to that again in a hurry! We finished a brilliant 19th out of 26th which some people would consider well... not great but considering our track record WELL DONE BONNIE.

The winner was a deserving Denmark whose song was lovely and simple but her lisp rather annoyed me, anyway ill put that in here just because well, she won bless her little soul! 

Tich

I recently discovered that this girl existed and I am actually really excited to see what she brings out, her début album 'Dumb' was released a few days ago and if this song is anything to go by I think I am going to have a long standing love for this musician, its nice to have someone who can sing and writes her own music. Its refreshing as so many people in this day and age do not write their own music or are so auto-tuned that it is painful to listen to!

so enjoy, cause I certainly do and I think there are big things to come from this girl!

Writing

As it so happens, at the moment I am trying to write something which is at least half decent. I find writing helps me to clear my head, I get to escape to another place when reality gets too much. Nothing I ever write is what I would deem as readable and to be honest I am struggling to write at all at the moment even though the amount of stress keeps on building around me.

A levels at the moment seem to be the only thing that is being talked about and when you put enough pressure on yourself to do well and get into university on the course you have dreamed of for so long it all becomes a little too much.
Studying English has made my mind more creative and my understanding of the written and spoken word so much wider. I am grateful for my tutor because she has a way of making English fun again, which for a while it wasn't for me. I like to think that one day I will be able to surround myself in the English literature and Language and be paid to do so.

So this is what I want to do, and well where do you see yourself? The impossible question.

My favourite person's birthday

Me and Mum a few years ago on holiday

My little sister and a rather disgruntled Mum

Mum and my best friend

Me and Mum both looking worse for wear

This lady right here is one of it not the most important person to ever walk the earth, in my opinion anyway. Without her I wouldn't know comfort, love, anger, passion and certainly compromise. She taught me everything that makes me who I am today (whether that is a good thing i'm not sure) I know for a fact that I do not show this lady enough love and that is why I am sharing her with the internet because everyone should know that I adore this beautiful lady with every single atom in my body. She has done so much and has been through so much and yet she still manages to be one of the strongest people I know. I know I am not biased because she is my mum because she has everyone around her adoring her too. She listens to my problems and never once have I told her something and felt judged even though I am her child she is always supportive and honest (a little too honest). She brought me and my younger sister and brother into this world and I think as her greatest achievements we owe her everything, due to the fact that every heartbreak, failure, success, opportunity, job, love and future we get is all because of her. I cannot thank her enough.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BEAUTIFUL MUM FOR TOMORROW. 

Silent Problems

One of my massive annoyances in life is when people have a problem with me and don't hash it out. I think that if there is a problem, I and the person who has the problem both deserve the respect that comes with sorting it out.
I can not sort a problem that I am unaware of, It makes me angrier that you would tell someone else about the problem rather than going to the source itself. I get that some people do not deal well with confrontation but at least give me the chance to talk things through else the problem is just going to reoccur and become much larger than it needs to be.

moral of the story is, if I have a problem I will tell you about it, I only expect the same courtesy back.

One word

I have a passion, this all started when I was pretty young and realised I didn't look the same as everyone else did, I wasn't skinny or popular in fact I experienced some pretty nasty taunts. Nothing can prepare you for bullying and I think people need to be more aware of what it can do to a person.

It takes years for someone to build confidence and only one word to shatter it.

I once watched a documentary about bullying, 'The Bully Project' and this brought up some real tough feelings to deal with, I'm not really one to express these so openly but I felt an innate need to protect most of the kids in this programme. Now it was thought up due to the fact that two young boys felt so victimised that they took their own lives. One was just the tender age of 11, I mean this actually sickens me to the core that someone at that age can feel so victimised that they choose to end their own life. This needs to be something we talk about and make people aware of!
That is just what his parents are doing, they are turning a huge tragedy into something positive and trying to make a difference in other children's lives to try to prevent this from happening to frequently because the sad fact of it is, this is just one out of a sea of people that no matter their age feel they have no way out. I commend them for being strong and think you should all go and help out a really beneficial cause!

http://www.standforthesilent.org/
MAKE A DIFFERENCE. CHANGE LIVES.

Arrow

So I have recently discovered this show which airs on the CW in the USA, the premise according to IMDB is "Spoilt millionaire playboy Oliver Queen is missing-presumed-dead when his yacht is lost at sea. He returns five years later a changed man, determined to clean up the city as a hooded vigilante armed with a bow."

I have to say that firstly I was attracted to this show due to my shallow attitude and Stephen Amell's extraordinary face. However being someone who LOVES superheroes I did feel like this could either entertain me or really make me want to pull my hair out. Luckily for my scalp the first option was how I found myself, fully entertained. Although the season is still rather early on I have found the storyline engrossing although sometimes repetitive, I do find myself wanting more and more.
The bad boy image is something that I think is enticing to us females and the males also have plenty of gun toting maniacs and rather beautiful women to oogle too. I have to admit I was relieved when it was renewed for a second season recently and cannot wait to see what other blue collar scam artists it can produce. I think with a premise similar in many ways to that of Revenge in which she is also seeking to avenge her fathers death and make it worth something this has more action packed moments which will have you on the edge of your seat wondering whether the hooded vigilante is going to be generous and spare the next life.

I have to admit that I am attracted to this show partly due to the English involvement that is John Barrowman, after seeing him and the good guy saving lives so frequently in Doctor Who and Torchwood its nice to see an evil side. Not sure which one I prefer though!

I would strongly recommend this show to pretty much everyone, whether you like to sit in awe over six packs or enjoy the thrill of action this show is pretty much an all around must watch!
8/10 from me :)

How soon is too soon? Relationship Milestones

I recently had a friend who after a month of dating got given a key to her boyfriend's house, coming from me an extremely unlucky in love teenager I think this is too soon. So I decided to do some digging and find out what the people around me thought about relationship 'too milestones'

How soon is too soon to say I love you? 
"I don't think that there is a time limit, when you love someone and you feel that at the moment you need to say it. That is the right time." 
I believe to a certain extent this is true, I mean I personally wouldn't be saying it right off the bat!
"It shouldn't be too soon because to start off with you’re never 100% on feelings At least a month is more acceptable because you've had time to be with them and understand your feelings more" I do agree with this statement more but I mean there have been instances of people meeting and getting married within the a month and they end up living happily for 60 years. I guess what we are all trying to say is that its about as predictable as the weather in England.

How soon is too soon to have sex in a relationship?
"The best relationships start with a friendship, and that needs time to develop before you take it to the next step"
I one hundred percent agree with this, I think that knowing someone well enough to have a sense of security and comfort is essential. I mean you have to be able to tell the person how you are feeling and if you don't have the confidence to tell them, how are you going to be able to enjoy the sex. This also means you have a foundation to your relationship that isn't based on sex, which tends in general to last longer.

How soon is too soon to have a key?
"Shouldn't be too soon, but it depends how long you've known them and if you can trust them."
I agree that trust is the most important thing when handing someone a key, I personally do not think that giving a key soon into a relationship is a good move but as stated below, it isn't an invitation to move in but it is a step towards it and making sure you are in a stable relationship that has a certain future is important before letting them into your personal space whenever they want. "A key doesn't mean moving in, it means they trust you and want you to know that you can be around whenever you want "

How soon is too soon to meet the parents?
"This can be any time  just because you've met the parents doesn't mean you've got to stay with them. You’re in a relationship with them not the parents"
I do disagree with this, I think a good relationship with parents is important and if you are not 100% confident that you are with a someone you love and want to be with for the future if their parents do not like you this can be detrimental for the relationship. I would say make sure that you know you can get over this hurdle before you jump it.

How soon is too soon to move in?
"6 months + but It depends how quickly you want to move the relationship and if it will be a good or bad thing for your relationship"
I would say that being on the higher end of the 6 months plus is a better way to do this, I mean today this really isn't a long time to be with someone but this is a true test in a relationship and can make or break one. I think knowing what you are in for before is probably going to help out significantly. So assuming you know your partners little annoying habits and they know yours, all should be good and well to take the plunge.

How soon is too soon to propose?
This is the big question on everyone's list, when is the right time to propose or in some cases, to accept. I have a strong opinion on the fact that marriage is not a big deal, in fact I see it as a very expensive constitution that most of the time ends in divorce. It takes more commitment to stay with someone without a legally binding contract telling you that you have to.
"I don’t see the point in being engaged or married, people say it shows commitment when really it doesn't  You shouldn't have to be wearing a ring to let other people know you’re taken" This point of showing you are taken does make some sense to me, that a ring is a saying 'keep your hands off' but then the amount of unfaithfulness that a ring does not stop is really quite scary.

So all in all this is an extremely long blog post that I hope people will enjoy, Thank you to those people that ever so nicely gave their opinions to me. I really would like to hear what people think of this and how soon do you think is too soon for these relationship milestones!

Old friends becoming new friends

My all time favourite thing is when people you used to know suddenly become part of your life again.

 I mean someone who took care of you when you were too drunk to walk home, someone you could chat with about the boys or girls you liked, someone you have enough memories with to write a novel and enough love to fill a heart.

The worst part of it is when this person comes back and you realise everything you did together you wonder how you ever managed to find yourself lost from them in the first place. I believe that everything happens for a reason, and maybe we both just needed to grow to realise that friendships like ours don't come around very often and we shouldn't take what we have for granted. 

You can spend years building a friendship and it can take almost no time at all to forget what you had, so this  post is to remind you all, to pick up the phone and keep in touch with the people you love. Luckily for me I get a second chance but sometimes people aren't that lucky!
Now I admittedly don't live a very exciting life but seeing this girl who was my best friend for years for the first time in about 4 years next weekend has me excited and I mean I cannot wait.

Bucket list

1. Have a beer and sing some karaoke with Blake Shelton
Okay so this would mainly consist of me drinking beer and Blake cracking out the tunes on the karaoke, but I mean what sort of person in my opinion would not want to do this! The dude is super talented and seems like a class down to earth person, I mean if it happened to be a hot summer day a BBQ wouldn't go a miss but yeah this is that one thing on your bucket list that is allowed to be totally impossible.

2. See the New York skyline at sunset
Seeing New York in general is something that I aspire to do but I mean this has got to be one of the most beautiful sights in the world (apart from the above mentioned Blake on karaoke!)

3. Be a cast member in a west end musical
As someone who is in love with musicals this would be a dream come true, I would not want to be in the spotlight (I don't deal with pressure) but being a whore in Les Mis could be fun, or maybe a soroity girl in Legally Blonde the musical or a munchkin in Wicked.

4. Campaign/make a difference for bullying
I saw a documentary once called 'Bully' and it completely changed me, I felt the intense need to protect the kids and I now would love to be able to make a difference to someone having experienced bullying for most of my life.

5. Learn to drive
I really have wanted to do this since I was 17 and could first start to learn but as a poor college student trying to progress to university I am afraid I wont be able to afford to do so till later on in life, but it is something I very much intend to do someday!

I wonder if any of you read this and think... yeah I'd put that on my bucket list too let me know, or even comment and let me know what's on your list already!

Safe Haven

I'm firstly going to talk about this movie's very few good points,  I personally thought that Josh Duhamel was shirtless for enough of this movie to make it intriguing! And Julliane Hough looked incredible in the Roxy bikini.

However not much else of this movie was worth the watch, the plot line was as predictable as Justin Bieber becoming another troubled teen star. And I don't know about anyone else but I certainly saw that coming!
However the supernatural twist was something that I did not see coming well until it was heavily hinted when Julianne's character Katie/Aaron asked Jo played by Cobie Smulders why she didn't leave the small town that they inhabited, I personally would love to live in a place that beautiful, especially if the local shop keeper looked like Josh's character.
Admittedly one character I did enjoy was the detective, David Lyons performance was hauntingly creepy and to a certain extent terrifying.

Now I'm normally one to read books first but this time was an exception, and after seeing the predictable, boring story line unravel in this movie I am not sure I want to read the book. However it may end up being a nice holiday read.

I would probably give this movie a 5/10 mainly for Josh Duhamel's face and the beautiful letter Jo writes which is revealed at the climax of the movie.

I've definitely decided to start a blog

I suddenly felt the urge to inform any person who may unfortunately came across this blog of my thoughts and feelings on whatever floats or in some circumstances sinks my boat.

I'm not at all certain to what extent I will be bothered to update this considering I am an extremely busy, unemployed college student just passing her time reading books and watching badly interpreted movies of said books. One of which I just happened to waste two hours of my life watching tonight.  Any way completely of topic. So I suppose I should say something about myself right, without giving away too much information, I would like my identity intact ;)

I'm 19, studying English, History and reluctantly psychology, all of which I hope to use to get into university one day... hopefully soon.
So yeah i'm not entirely sure what to write, although I am sure that this sort of thing becomes easier over time, maybe ill post next time while in a more reflective, or aggravated mood. I am always more fun when I am angry...

Till then, be seeing ya!