Self doubt.

As an avid self doubter I have come to realise that many people at at least one point in their life seem to believe that they are not good enough or what they are doing isn't right. Recently this has been A massive issue for me in deciding what my future holds. We are all asked the question or even ask ourselves the question, where am I going to be in years to come? This has been playing over and over in my mind for a extended period of time and  have begun to doubt that I even know where, what or who I should be.
 However I know that I am only young and the idea that people who have been living for much longer than me still carry this burden makes me hopeful that there is time to change and yes knowing who you are or want to be is something that I am envious of.
I now have begun to realise that it really doesn't matter!
It really doesn't matter, this whole sentence and philosophy seems obscene and ludicrous. How can it not matter? Do you not have any hope?
The answer is that I do have hope and I am also very much aware that who I choose to be is completely up to me and I shouldn't be pressured to decide because I am the only one with the power to change myself, my life and my choices.
I'm not going to settle for what I think is easy just because im scared of taking chances, isn't that what life is about? taking chances and making sure that you can be pushed to the metaphorical ledge, because with risk comes reward and if it all comes tumbling down there is always a lesson to be learnt, Because lets be honest you never stop learning in life. Every single challenge you face is a chance to improve on yourself.
I am going to ensure that from now on, I do everything I can to be the best version of myself, I think if everybody did the world wouldn't be so harsh and cruel.