Around this time of the year I find myself contemplating a lot of my friendships.
Okay so that sounds like I am a horrible friend, but the truth is that people that I saw everyday I have not spoken to in months and sometimes years. I will be the first to admit that I am partially to blame, I mean life gets busy sometimes! However to not speak to someone you considered your best friend for over five years is really quite tragic. I do understand that an effort needs to be made on my part but a friendship is not one sided and as much as I forget to keep in contact they do too.
It has gotten to the terrible point where texting or calling these people would be a weird thing to do. A call that I assume would be mistaken for something being wrong or a call of some tragic news. Is there a point when you have not spoken to a best friend of five years for so long that it becomes awkward when you do?
I take my time to think about all of the memories that I not only made with this specific person but with the friendship group that we were a part of. I holidayed with one girl, helped her relationship of now 6ish years but yet we haven''t talked in so long I honestly couldn't say that I know her any more.
Would we even have anything to talk about?
These friends that I am referring to were there for me at a really difficult time and I can honestly say are a huge part of why I am me today. However they don't get to see or know the person that they helped to shape.
Silly things like the Disney sleep over that we had are what I miss most, where we collected about ever pillow in my house. Then we put on a soundtrack mix and danced and sang our hearts out before stuffing ourselves with popcorn.
I think what I am getting at is that I really wish I hadn't lost contact and maybe there is still a salvageable friendship somewhere in there, guess ill have to text and see.
