RANT.

If you come into my home, you respect my mother and her house. That is a given right? My mothers partner has friends who insist on cleaning new spoons. Now my mother is what I call a 'Monica' she is obsessively clean, if one of her place mats are the wrong way round, she notices and changes it. This is annoying and I really have a thing about people who think they are bigger and better than other people. This is situational ranting, I would not normally blog about things like this but I mean, GET THAT STICK OUT OF YOUR ARSE...

My Favourite youtubers!

Music: I have to admit this is a tie between Sam Tsui and Tyler ward!  But at the moment Sam has just released his debut album and as someone who discovered him a long time ago when he sang with Nick Pitera one of my favourite songs 'For good'. His album is so beautiful, incorporating heart-warming love songs such as 'Me without you' and 'Wherever you are' to the more upbeat songs like the title track 'Make it up' I strongly recommend buying his album. He is super pretty, also his voice is not something you hear very often. He acts too! And apparently he has decided to let the world know there is really very little he cant do by dancing in his new music video which I will  insert here:

He also works with a SUPER TALENTED producer Kurt Schneider.
(side note they also both attended Yale University, what clever boys!)

Comedy: 100% for me this has got to be Shane Dawson, I mean this guy is fucking funny! If you like me enjoy crude senses of humour he is the guy for you! He incorporates music into his comedy at times also which I love being such a huge fan of music. I love that he doesn't take himself too seriously and I know if I've had a shitty day I can tune into one of his videos and find myself with an ears splitting grin and if not my sides normally hurt from copious amounts of laughter! Especially funny is his music video and song Fuck up ill add that in below: 

Vlogger: This has to go to like many others would agree Joey Graceffa. Man his life can be the most boring thing ever and he still manages to make me smile, whether it be his Edward Cullen hair, Shared love of the hunger games or just general silliness  I am definitely a psychopath (name for his viewers) Also he did extremely well on the US version of The Amazing Race with fellow youtuber Strawburry17. His face is also not a bad sight when one is having a bad day, CHECK HIM OUT GETTING SHIRTLESS WITH SAWYER: 

Make up/Beauty: I feel I need to show some love to my fellow English folks which I am happy to do with fleurdeforce (fleur) She is a beautiful lady and has some killer advice on what is good within the beauty realm. I am not exactly the most competent girl when it comes to making myself look even slightly presentable but her videos have helped me to know what is good to buy and introduced me to some lovely products that I use now:

Finally I feel like this YouTube needs a mention even though im not sure how I would categorise it, I just really enjoy the short films that they make, in fact this is my favourite short film production channel although that doesn't really have the best ring to it. Wong Fu Productions are 3 guys that I have to admit I shamelessly have only just discovered and man, they are talented. They surround themselves admittedly with some awesome talent which just helps to propel their good work into the realm of AWESOME. So here is a short film they did which was really beautifully shot and see if you recognise any of the actors... Maybe from Glee?

Eurovision 2013

So the Eurovision was on this past Saturday and I thought I would wait to post so that I could express my predictable sadness.
The same thing happens every year when it comes to me and the Eurovision, I always watch it thinking 'This year we might actually do well, and some of the people may actually be good' Every year I find myself staring open mouthed at the TV for the sheer ridiculousness and this year certainly did not disappoint I mean Romania definitely win weirdest performance ill just throw it in here for you all to erm... Experience?

I wont be forgetting those 3 minutes of my life wasted in a long time.

Then of course you have my personal favourite, which was not United kingdom surprisingly it was Malta. The cute romance song which was a Jack Johnson type feel good song sung by a recently qualified doctor, no idea how he had the time to enter Eurovision considering the medical students I know have no time to do much else and they are still STUDENTS?! But nevertheless I LOVED IT. So here a feast for your eyes and ears! it even has a music video which is ADORABLE.

Then there was Bonnie Tyler who represented my great nation, yeah I really didn't think much of the song and her performance wasn't great either, I dont know if its because she wasn't my era or just isn't my type of music but I will not be listening to that again in a hurry! We finished a brilliant 19th out of 26th which some people would consider well... not great but considering our track record WELL DONE BONNIE.

The winner was a deserving Denmark whose song was lovely and simple but her lisp rather annoyed me, anyway ill put that in here just because well, she won bless her little soul! 

Tich

I recently discovered that this girl existed and I am actually really excited to see what she brings out, her début album 'Dumb' was released a few days ago and if this song is anything to go by I think I am going to have a long standing love for this musician, its nice to have someone who can sing and writes her own music. Its refreshing as so many people in this day and age do not write their own music or are so auto-tuned that it is painful to listen to!

so enjoy, cause I certainly do and I think there are big things to come from this girl!

Writing

As it so happens, at the moment I am trying to write something which is at least half decent. I find writing helps me to clear my head, I get to escape to another place when reality gets too much. Nothing I ever write is what I would deem as readable and to be honest I am struggling to write at all at the moment even though the amount of stress keeps on building around me.

A levels at the moment seem to be the only thing that is being talked about and when you put enough pressure on yourself to do well and get into university on the course you have dreamed of for so long it all becomes a little too much.
Studying English has made my mind more creative and my understanding of the written and spoken word so much wider. I am grateful for my tutor because she has a way of making English fun again, which for a while it wasn't for me. I like to think that one day I will be able to surround myself in the English literature and Language and be paid to do so.

So this is what I want to do, and well where do you see yourself? The impossible question.

My favourite person's birthday

Me and Mum a few years ago on holiday

My little sister and a rather disgruntled Mum

Mum and my best friend

Me and Mum both looking worse for wear

This lady right here is one of it not the most important person to ever walk the earth, in my opinion anyway. Without her I wouldn't know comfort, love, anger, passion and certainly compromise. She taught me everything that makes me who I am today (whether that is a good thing i'm not sure) I know for a fact that I do not show this lady enough love and that is why I am sharing her with the internet because everyone should know that I adore this beautiful lady with every single atom in my body. She has done so much and has been through so much and yet she still manages to be one of the strongest people I know. I know I am not biased because she is my mum because she has everyone around her adoring her too. She listens to my problems and never once have I told her something and felt judged even though I am her child she is always supportive and honest (a little too honest). She brought me and my younger sister and brother into this world and I think as her greatest achievements we owe her everything, due to the fact that every heartbreak, failure, success, opportunity, job, love and future we get is all because of her. I cannot thank her enough.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BEAUTIFUL MUM FOR TOMORROW. 

Silent Problems

One of my massive annoyances in life is when people have a problem with me and don't hash it out. I think that if there is a problem, I and the person who has the problem both deserve the respect that comes with sorting it out.
I can not sort a problem that I am unaware of, It makes me angrier that you would tell someone else about the problem rather than going to the source itself. I get that some people do not deal well with confrontation but at least give me the chance to talk things through else the problem is just going to reoccur and become much larger than it needs to be.

moral of the story is, if I have a problem I will tell you about it, I only expect the same courtesy back.

One word

I have a passion, this all started when I was pretty young and realised I didn't look the same as everyone else did, I wasn't skinny or popular in fact I experienced some pretty nasty taunts. Nothing can prepare you for bullying and I think people need to be more aware of what it can do to a person.

It takes years for someone to build confidence and only one word to shatter it.

I once watched a documentary about bullying, 'The Bully Project' and this brought up some real tough feelings to deal with, I'm not really one to express these so openly but I felt an innate need to protect most of the kids in this programme. Now it was thought up due to the fact that two young boys felt so victimised that they took their own lives. One was just the tender age of 11, I mean this actually sickens me to the core that someone at that age can feel so victimised that they choose to end their own life. This needs to be something we talk about and make people aware of!
That is just what his parents are doing, they are turning a huge tragedy into something positive and trying to make a difference in other children's lives to try to prevent this from happening to frequently because the sad fact of it is, this is just one out of a sea of people that no matter their age feel they have no way out. I commend them for being strong and think you should all go and help out a really beneficial cause!

http://www.standforthesilent.org/
MAKE A DIFFERENCE. CHANGE LIVES.

Arrow

So I have recently discovered this show which airs on the CW in the USA, the premise according to IMDB is "Spoilt millionaire playboy Oliver Queen is missing-presumed-dead when his yacht is lost at sea. He returns five years later a changed man, determined to clean up the city as a hooded vigilante armed with a bow."

I have to say that firstly I was attracted to this show due to my shallow attitude and Stephen Amell's extraordinary face. However being someone who LOVES superheroes I did feel like this could either entertain me or really make me want to pull my hair out. Luckily for my scalp the first option was how I found myself, fully entertained. Although the season is still rather early on I have found the storyline engrossing although sometimes repetitive, I do find myself wanting more and more.
The bad boy image is something that I think is enticing to us females and the males also have plenty of gun toting maniacs and rather beautiful women to oogle too. I have to admit I was relieved when it was renewed for a second season recently and cannot wait to see what other blue collar scam artists it can produce. I think with a premise similar in many ways to that of Revenge in which she is also seeking to avenge her fathers death and make it worth something this has more action packed moments which will have you on the edge of your seat wondering whether the hooded vigilante is going to be generous and spare the next life.

I have to admit that I am attracted to this show partly due to the English involvement that is John Barrowman, after seeing him and the good guy saving lives so frequently in Doctor Who and Torchwood its nice to see an evil side. Not sure which one I prefer though!

I would strongly recommend this show to pretty much everyone, whether you like to sit in awe over six packs or enjoy the thrill of action this show is pretty much an all around must watch!
8/10 from me :)

How soon is too soon? Relationship Milestones

I recently had a friend who after a month of dating got given a key to her boyfriend's house, coming from me an extremely unlucky in love teenager I think this is too soon. So I decided to do some digging and find out what the people around me thought about relationship 'too milestones'

How soon is too soon to say I love you? 
"I don't think that there is a time limit, when you love someone and you feel that at the moment you need to say it. That is the right time." 
I believe to a certain extent this is true, I mean I personally wouldn't be saying it right off the bat!
"It shouldn't be too soon because to start off with you’re never 100% on feelings At least a month is more acceptable because you've had time to be with them and understand your feelings more" I do agree with this statement more but I mean there have been instances of people meeting and getting married within the a month and they end up living happily for 60 years. I guess what we are all trying to say is that its about as predictable as the weather in England.

How soon is too soon to have sex in a relationship?
"The best relationships start with a friendship, and that needs time to develop before you take it to the next step"
I one hundred percent agree with this, I think that knowing someone well enough to have a sense of security and comfort is essential. I mean you have to be able to tell the person how you are feeling and if you don't have the confidence to tell them, how are you going to be able to enjoy the sex. This also means you have a foundation to your relationship that isn't based on sex, which tends in general to last longer.

How soon is too soon to have a key?
"Shouldn't be too soon, but it depends how long you've known them and if you can trust them."
I agree that trust is the most important thing when handing someone a key, I personally do not think that giving a key soon into a relationship is a good move but as stated below, it isn't an invitation to move in but it is a step towards it and making sure you are in a stable relationship that has a certain future is important before letting them into your personal space whenever they want. "A key doesn't mean moving in, it means they trust you and want you to know that you can be around whenever you want "

How soon is too soon to meet the parents?
"This can be any time  just because you've met the parents doesn't mean you've got to stay with them. You’re in a relationship with them not the parents"
I do disagree with this, I think a good relationship with parents is important and if you are not 100% confident that you are with a someone you love and want to be with for the future if their parents do not like you this can be detrimental for the relationship. I would say make sure that you know you can get over this hurdle before you jump it.

How soon is too soon to move in?
"6 months + but It depends how quickly you want to move the relationship and if it will be a good or bad thing for your relationship"
I would say that being on the higher end of the 6 months plus is a better way to do this, I mean today this really isn't a long time to be with someone but this is a true test in a relationship and can make or break one. I think knowing what you are in for before is probably going to help out significantly. So assuming you know your partners little annoying habits and they know yours, all should be good and well to take the plunge.

How soon is too soon to propose?
This is the big question on everyone's list, when is the right time to propose or in some cases, to accept. I have a strong opinion on the fact that marriage is not a big deal, in fact I see it as a very expensive constitution that most of the time ends in divorce. It takes more commitment to stay with someone without a legally binding contract telling you that you have to.
"I don’t see the point in being engaged or married, people say it shows commitment when really it doesn't  You shouldn't have to be wearing a ring to let other people know you’re taken" This point of showing you are taken does make some sense to me, that a ring is a saying 'keep your hands off' but then the amount of unfaithfulness that a ring does not stop is really quite scary.

So all in all this is an extremely long blog post that I hope people will enjoy, Thank you to those people that ever so nicely gave their opinions to me. I really would like to hear what people think of this and how soon do you think is too soon for these relationship milestones!

Old friends becoming new friends

My all time favourite thing is when people you used to know suddenly become part of your life again.

 I mean someone who took care of you when you were too drunk to walk home, someone you could chat with about the boys or girls you liked, someone you have enough memories with to write a novel and enough love to fill a heart.

The worst part of it is when this person comes back and you realise everything you did together you wonder how you ever managed to find yourself lost from them in the first place. I believe that everything happens for a reason, and maybe we both just needed to grow to realise that friendships like ours don't come around very often and we shouldn't take what we have for granted. 

You can spend years building a friendship and it can take almost no time at all to forget what you had, so this  post is to remind you all, to pick up the phone and keep in touch with the people you love. Luckily for me I get a second chance but sometimes people aren't that lucky!
Now I admittedly don't live a very exciting life but seeing this girl who was my best friend for years for the first time in about 4 years next weekend has me excited and I mean I cannot wait.